Have you ever had a day where you have a sort of a surreal moment and think, "wait, what am I doing? what's the purpose of life? what am I doing all of this for?" I thought that today. This doesn't mean I'm confused or not following Jesus, so before you go and think some weird thoughts about me, stop. Be real with yourself - I'm sure you have them too. I think sometimes I just focus so much inward that I forget the big picture. Someone once wrote me a letter and said, "Keep the end in sight always, that way you can take everything in stride." Makes sense to me. Gotta keep my eye on the prize or else I can forget the what and the why.
Today was definitely an "off" day. I didn't really feel like being around people but at the same time I was terribly lonely. How that works itself out, I'm not sure. I hate days like this. I just feel terrible. I think I woke up with this predisposition. I had a horrible dream and I awoke feeling rather confused and angry. [does this happen to anyone else?] I'm a freak.
Well I'm glad this day is over. Tomorrow is a new day.
Actually, You are the new day:
You're most definitely not a freak =). And thank God for new days. I used to get those days a lot Steph =)...a lot of them had no good reason really. Not even a weird dream to spark it. That's not to say that I'm lonely a lot or whatnot...I just used to be a VERY introspective person (it is a sinful characteristic of mine that does manifest itself without the help of the Holy Spirit). I still get those days but they're not as bad...and it's mostly because I've been learning that the only thing that gets me through those days (when I feel the most earthly) is focusing on heavenly things...you get what I mean? =)
Anyways, I also wanted to say thank you for introducing those hilarious shows (Wipeout and that mock-japanese game show) to me =). They're hilariously entertaining and I enjoy them (and your blog) a whole lot =D. I love the joy you have in living life. It's refreshing to read =).